Wandering Thoughts

why is it that you have to hide things?
is it because you dont want others to feel bothered?
well actually your just making others do, i guess..
"its bothersome to deal with you who never say anything. because no one will understand you.."
why is it that you want to keep everything to yourself
someday it will comsume you
and when that time comes,. you cant get out already
because you closed yourself to the world.
darkness is all that's left and no light could possibly make it bright anymore.
will you be prepared for that?
*smiles*
your smile cannot hide everything
"if you dont want to tell me, you dont have to. but dont smile when you dont feel like it."
"you cannot hide your pain from me. i know that i cant do anything to help, but at least let me
worry about you."

Something i have to tell

the days we travelled
even if im always there beside you
walking the same paths
even though were always together
it still felt so distant

even if you cant remember my existence
ill always be here for you
though this feelings can never be repayed
just being by your side
ill stay true

but why does it have to be like this?
why does it have to hurt so bad?
i guess this is the price i have to pay
to protect you, to save you
just to bring you back and see your smile again

this feeling, ill hold on
a while longer until i get you back
this overflowing thoughts of
saying how much you really mean to me

coz i know in the end
the memories we shared
will bring us back together
and when that time comes ill definetely
tell you how much I love you..

**inspired by the one im reading currently: "Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles"

where can you get that much strength to hold on?

A Glimpse into my Mind >:)

Thoughts really are just ideas popping into your head
but what if you have the capability to move a step and
make it a reality...

Well im really of the happy go lucky, silent type person
cause im not a conversationalist type,
thats just for other person cause i usually talk to myself
(whooo creepy ) and things that go
on in my mind are things that i guess i should not be
thinking, ung tipong ikaw ba yan,.

in my mind theres a place in where darkness resides.
darkness that i couldnt have just imagined or maybe it was
already there before i totally knew myself,. it wasnt that
obvious due to my stupid personality.,
sometimes i think i should just bring it out maybe at least
once,the Devil in me., no it comes out once in a while but just
a glimpse or portion of it.. this character doesnt care or better
say hates the existence of everything and everyone,. maybe
this person even hates his very own existence., even if its existence
is not known to the world,.

... but id like to bring him out though due to curiosity
even if it removes my existence >:)

The Start of Everything

Guys!
to those who pass by my blog thankx in advance..
well for the design it still sucks, but in due time ill try to fix it
when i'm not that lazy to do so.. well anyways i think you'll
typically understand me more if theres by chance you'd read
(wtf!! nagdrama :)) )
thats all for NOW., bow

>:)

Moon

its evening at last
another day has passed
i packed my things
preparing to leave

dim lights
cars passing
in the cold night
i walk alone

Going to the place
i really appreciate
at the rooftop
overlooking the whole place

there imagining
of things that never will be
illusions of my stupid world
and a moment of reality

lying down
under the clouded sky
holding my hand up high
reaching for something
that isnt there

but even so someday
with this beautiful scenery
the next time i look at it
i would be together with the moon
who lights my dark world..